’cause sometimes that mountain you’ve been climbing
is just a grain of sand
and what you’ve been up there searching for forever
is in your hands
when you figure out love is all that matters after all
it sure makes everything else seem so small.
It was Sunday morning – Patrick was headed to church solo while Rhett and I had a quiet morning to ourselves. It was only the second time I was alone with this new bundle of love so I was soaking up every second of it. We are lucky that our wonderful baby sleeps a lot – and by a lot, I mean all of the time except while he’s eating or we’re changing his tiny little diaper. During his morning slumber, I decided to hold him and just admire his little face – ever-changing of expressions and faces. I wish I knew what he was dreaming about – his dreams seem sad sometimes and happy others. I wish I could take away all of his bad dreams. I grabbed the remote and sifted through our week’s worth of recorded shows. On the top of the list was a Carrie Underwood concert so I quickly hit play. I just adore her and the great example she sets for young women. Not only is she inspiring as an artist, but as a spiritual person as well. She began to sing one of my favorites, “So Small”. Although I have heard this song multiple times before, it took on a new meaning that was unexpected. As I held this blessing of a child, I began to see how much it has changed me. As she sang the chorus, I couldn’t stop the tears from trickling down my face as I looked at Rhett. It is amazing how different the world looks and how many things don’t seem to matter anymore. I welcome this change and hope to live my new life understanding the true meaning of love. Unconditional Love. Amazed at how much I already love this child, the song summed up everything rushing through my head at that moment. Although my life has been successful and fulfilling, it is now complete. Patrick and I have a wonderful marriage and it wasn’t until the past year that we finally starting realizing something was missing. Something bigger than us. It was at that moment that we realized we wanted children. We are truly blessed to have this precious baby boy and “it sure makes everything else seem so small”.